Thursday, February 21, 2013

The Wall and Fire Breathing Dragons

Introverts, or at least myself, have this imaginary brick wall that tends to pop up frequently. I can go out and be with large groups of people and even talk to them all day, but after so much the wall magically appears and I font want to be around anyone anymore. Unfortunately I don't just stop in front of this imaginary wall, I smack into it. The wall is controlled by my inner introvert telling me that she has had enough interaction for one day, and that if not taken home immediately she will turn into the equivalent of a very grumpy fire breathing dragon. This wall is kind of inconvenient at times, especially when I'm with a large group of friends and for some reason or another I can not leave. I get quiet and moody beyond control. I know I'm being quiet and a little rude, and I really do want to stop, but I just cant. Its literally like the fire breathing dragon has completely taken over. There's no getting me in a better mood, unless taken home, and even then if it takes to long there is just no getting happy again what so ever.

My fiance is learning about the wall and the fire breathing dragon behind it. He doesn't completely understand though. Especially when I've been at school and work interacting people all day and just want to stay home and watch a movie. I myself am learning how to cope with this looming wall that seems to follow me around and the uncontrollable monster lurking behind it. I'm starting to know when its coming up so I can just stay at home and remain in a good mood. Maybe one day the wall will get pushed back and the grumpy fire breathing dragon will be tamed a little better, but for now I just have to live with it.